Actor Joel Edgerton, "Loving" Star, Really Botched His First Kiss

When Joel Edgerton was 14, he threw a party and invited his girlfriend. But just as they were about to kiss — Edgerton made a split-second decision not to go through with it. She broke up with him at school that Monday. See Edgerton recount his ill-fated first kiss and more in a candid interview with W's editor-at-large Lynn Hirschberg.

Released on 3/23/2017

Transcript

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I didn't know about Richard and Mildred.
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I heard about Loving versus the State of Virginia as a case.
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I had no idea who they were, but I'm Australian,
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so I figured like I'm off the hook,
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it's not my responsibility to know that part of history.
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Then you wonder where was that day at school for Americans,
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because most young Americans don't know about the story.
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Those names are not in people's minds or on people's lips.
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Nor are they really on the civil rights timeline
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as educated in high school.
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You know, I love being scared at the movies.
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I recently saw a YouTube video clip that scared me
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and made me feel more tense than anything I've seen
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in a long time, it's an iguana running away
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from a bunch of snakes, you've gotta watch this.
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One animal versus another animal videos
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are some of the favorite real-life dramas I've ever seen.
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Basically, the snakes can't see,
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but they can feel and sense movement.
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And this iguana is just trying not to move.
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But there's three or four big, brown snakes
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kind of swirling around and he knows
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that if one of them happens to slide over him, he's done.
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And the moment the snake touches him he just takes off.
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And there's like 20 different snakes all trying
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to chase him on this beach.
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He's gotta get to this rocky cliff, dun dun dun.
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Let me get back to the real story here.
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My point is that movies are, I guess,
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are a safe place to feel fear,
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because you know there's no real payoff
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or real outcome to it, but you feel it in the moment.
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There's nothing more terrifying than actually watching
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a story where you go, oh, that could actually happen,
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or that person could really exist.
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I think the irrational fear that drives a lot
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of my behavior, I think, is the fear
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of not being appreciated or not being liked.
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I know this isn't like a psychologist's couch here,
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but a lot of us walk around constantly putting
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too much effort in trying to please people or deciding
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that other people don't value us or that they don't like us,
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and it really actually doesn't matter.
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When someone says do you want to completely hide
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behind a mask, you're like, yeah.
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But then your vanity comes back and you're like,
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but they're gonna see me, they're gonna know it's me.
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But then why do they have to?
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My first proper kiss was in a game of like truth, dare,
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but the first kiss that had some proper feeling behind it
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was a different thing, and I really ballsed that up.
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I kissed a girl, I had the opportunity and as I was
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sort of making the approach, I made a split,
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what I thought was a really great decision,
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I don't know why at the time, to kiss her on the arm.
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Instead of the general face area.
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She broke up with me two days later.
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The arm, I was just terrified.
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She had blue, a light blue flannel shirt on.
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Yeah, it wasn't like I was trying to kiss clothing,
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it was just that I was trying not to kiss face,
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because I was scared, I didn't know how to handle women.
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I was 14 and it was a party at my house.
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And that was Friday night and then Monday morning
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at school she broke up with me.
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Definitely because I kissed her arm.
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She was like, sign of things to come.
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I'm gonna cry if we talk about this anymore.